I O U

 

Written by AS

 

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RATED PG-14 -- for intense, mature situations

 

 

“OK, Steve, take your time.  No, there are no pressing issues here.  Everything is fine… --“ he laughed.  “No, I’m not keeping things from you except, of course, for the 5 murders, 3 kidnappings and 6 bank robberies we’ve been given since your plane took off!  Relax!  Have some fun and we’ll see you when you get back.”

 

Danny Williams leaned back in his chair and sighed as he hung up the phone and surveyed the mess on his desk.  Fortunately, Steve didn’t go to the mainland THAT often.  He glanced at his watch, amazed at how quickly the evening had flown by.  He knew he still had several more hours of paperwork to complete.  Although he normally handled his own share of the large amount of paperwork that Five-O generated, getting stuck with all of it on his own whenever the boss was out of town never failed to overwhelm him.  Thankfully, McGarrett was due back in a few days.  Dan couldn’t wait.

 

He heard the ringing of a phone and wondered who could be calling at such a late hour.  Realizing it was Steve’s private line, he hurried into the office and picked it up.  He figured it was probably McGarrett calling because he forgot something or felt the need to get just one more update.  Dan quickly decided not to give him any more information. 

 

But it was not McGarrett.  Danny recognized the voice of Lehue, an informant that Steve had kept on the side for many years.  The man insisted that he had to meet with McGarrett.  Without giving a reason, Williams refused him, playing out the snitch, wondering if he had anything good to sell or was just looking for a quick buck.  McGarrett was never known as a soft touch with the few informants he dealt with personally, but he did pay well.

 

Lehue assured he had some vital information on their investigation of a bribe from a local developer to the Mayor.  That was all he would say over the phone.  He need to talk to McGarrett.   

 

Should he level with the snitch, tell him Steve was not there and was unavailable?  No, never good to give out that kind of information to a street hood.  But the bribery case was an important one.

 

Maybe he should take Steve’s place?  Danny hesitated momentarily before agreeing to a meet as he thought it was a little odd for the guy to be calling so late.  Finally, he decided that things were probably on the level and that the informant simply needed the cash. 

 

He scribbled some information down on the pad that Steve kept close to his phone and hung up.  He glanced down at the meticulously neat workspace and thought back to his own messy desk.  He did not know how his friend managed to keep involved in so much and still be able to keep a clear desk most days.  He shook his head and hurried out to drive to the meet.  It wasn’t until he pulled the LTD out of the Palace’s parking lot that he realized he had forgotten to grab the piece of paper off Steve’s desk.  Fortunately, he remembered where he needed to go.

 

 

********

 

As Dan pulled the LTD to a stop in front of the run down apartment building, he shuddered at the number of times McGarrett had come here by himself to meet the informant.  He jogged up the stairs and silently vowed to take the time to accompany his friend to more of these meets.  After all a little informal back up never hurt.  He knocked on the door of the apartment, identifying himself. 

 

********

 

On the other side of the door, a shadowy figured paused, his finger itching on the trigger of gun with a silencer.  What was Williams doing here?  It was supposed to be McGarrett!!  He glanced back at the bound and gagged figure in the corner.  His plan was ruined.  Then again maybe not…  A small sadistic grin played on his face as he turned his arm & fired towards the corner.  Eyes on the door, he watched the handle slowly turn and positioned himself behind it.

 

********

 

Williams wasn’t sure but thought he had heard something on the other side.  Pulling his weapon from his waist holster, he slowly turned the handle, pushing the door open.  THWACK!!  Pain radiated briefly in his mind as he collapsed to the floor, gun falling by his side. 

 

********

 

 

Walking next to the pretty photographer, Steve silently admitted that the hastily arranged get-away had turned out quite well indeed. Even though they had barely been there two days he had to admit that he was more relaxed than he had felt in months. While not on the same level as the beauty of Hawaii, Napa California had a certain attraction that made the vineyards and the surrounding area special in their own right. 

 

The room at their bed-and-breakfast was a little too ornate for his liking but the peace and the beauty of the surrounding area nearly equaled the islands. Especially the beauty of his private scenery.  He glanced over at his companion as they entered the inn. 

 

“I’m going to call Danno, Nicole.”

 

Ms Wylie nodded.  She knew – you could take the man off the islands and away from the job, but you could never take Five-O out of McGarrett.  It was one of the things she found to be so intriguingly special about him.  Among others.   She turned towards him, stopping him with a hand on his arm.

 

“I’m going to take a shower.  Remember you’re on vacation – you aren’t supposed to be worrying about work.  Let Danny handle things for once.”  She gently chided.

 

“Worrying about the way he handles things isn’t it.  I trust Danno with my life under normal occurrences…” He did not finish the thought as he realized she had baited him.  She smirked and walked away as he moved to the phone.

 

 

********

 

Nicole entered from the bathroom to find Steve pensively contemplating the view from their window.

 

“Problems at the office?” 

 

She mentally crossed her fingers that if there were he did not know about them.

 

“Oh no – even if there were, Danno would never tell me.  He thinks I need this weekend too badly.”

 

Nicole walked up close behind him.  “Then you probably do,” she whispered.

 

 

********

 

“DANNO!” 

 

Steve bolted upright breathing heavily, nerves twitching, body sweaty with an ominous fear.  His eyes darted around the darkened room searching, not finding what he expected to see.

 

Nicole had turned over to face him.  “Steve?  What is it?”

 

Slowly he realized he must have been dreaming.  “It was just a dream.  Go back to sleep.  Sorry, Honey.”  He lay back down next to her, but knew he would not go back to sleep. 

 

It had seemed so frighteningly real – almost like he was witnessing something, but no one had known he was there.  No, that wasn’t quite it.  It was too vivid for that.  Even with his eyes open, he could still clearly see Danno’s face.  The image from the dream popped in Steve’s mind again.  Dan’s face – eyes darting wildly around in fear.  Then a sudden fixed stare.  His blue eyes growing huge.  The terror that was in them! The pain – no, agony - that was written all over the face he could read so well. 

 

All were visions that chilled his soul and Steve’s breathing quickened again, his chest tightened as the images replayed themselves.  The voice that was clearly Danno’s replayed itself in McGarrett’s mind.  The scream was full of a myriad of emotions.  But it had clearly been a cry for help. 

 

“STEVE!” 

 

In his mind, Steve heard Dan screaming his name over and over again.  He couldn’t shake it, couldn’t banish the feeling that Danno was looking for Steve to help him, that this was more than just a dream. 

 

The thought briefly occurred to Steve that this was a message.  That somehow his friend was trying to contact him.  He scoffed at the notion and decided it was his overactive imagination; the dream was a product of his dark Irish heritage.  Now that he had little stress and time to waste, his occasionally-brooding side must have reared its mystical image once more.  He’d have to work at firmly shoving it back down before he returned home.

 

He spent the remainder of the night convincing himself that the sense of foreboding that gripped him was nothing to be worried about – just remnants from a strange dream.  Then how to explain the uneasy fear clutching his chest. 

 

The sun was just starting to peak on the horizon when Steve silently slipped out of bed and got dressed.  He’d call Danno’s apartment, hear his voice and listen to his chiding about the very early morning call.  That would put his demons to rest.  Not wanting to wake Nicole, he silently left the room to use the downstairs phone.  His hand was on the phone, his fingers starting to dial when he finally realized how absurd it all was.  It was early now, that made it practically the middle of the night at home.  No matter how close they were, more because of how close they were, Steve knew that Dan would not be pleased with the night-time call.  He hung up slowly.  Maybe if he were still bugged by the dream, he’d call later.  Sighing deeply, he turned and went outside for a walk. 

 

 

********

 

He thought he was starting to become aware of his surroundings.  He tried to take a conscious self-inventory.  He knew he had a strange buzz playing in his head and his brain felt like it was moving in slow motion.  He felt like he could not take a deep breath and his stomach felt really queasy.  His mouth was really dry.  He could not move his arms or legs.  Dan Williams slowly opened his eyes, not sure where he was or what had happened.  The last thing he remembered…

 

A door opened and a figure approached him.  He fuzzily watched hands doing something with an object that must have been on some table next to him.  The hands raised the object into the air and a little bit of liquid came out of it.  A needle!  He needed to move away!  He couldn’t move – not the littlest bit!  He was trapped!  Steve!  Steve should have found him by now. He tried to call out to his friend – to scream Steve’s name. He found he could barely think the name, much less say it.  Dan felt the needle pierce his arm, the liquid enter his veins.  The ‘rush’ was almost instantaneous.  He drifted.

 

 

********

 

 

“Earth to McGarrett.”

 

After several minutes, Steve glanced over at his companion as they walked the dirt path edging the rolling hills scattered with vineyards.  He smiled, but remained pensively silent.  The scent of raw, moist earth, the fertile colors of the green vines, the brown soil, the blue sky failed to nab his attention.  His mind centered far away, on the Island paradise he left behind.  And the severed communications that had started out as a gift and now felt like a sinister restriction, an enforced and dire separation.

 

“Penny for your thoughts?”

 

He tried to smile at Nicole, but it barely reached his lips. 

 

“No, don’t say it.  Let me guess – the dream.”

 

“Sorry, Honey,” he sighed.

 

“Let’s go back to the inn before dinner.  I’ll freshen up while you talk to Danny.  After that, I expect to have your undivided attention again.”

 

They returned to the bed-and-breakfast and Steve went to use the phone while Nicole walked upstairs to their room for a few minutes.  When she returned, she noticed his face was still concerned, worried.  “He didn’t answer?”

 

“No, and I tried both the office and his condo.”

 

“Maybe he’s enjoying a day off – you know, a private life, Steve.”

 

He nodded in acquiescence not wanting to continue the discussion.  He knew better.  Sure, Williams had an active social life – one McGarrett frequently ribbed him about.  But his second in command’s dedication to the job was complete, especially when the boss was out of town. 

 

They went to dinner at an expensive, but highly recommended local hot-spot and Steve tried to focus his attention on Nicole.  But a large part of his mind and his heart were in Honolulu with his friend.  They cut their evening short and went back to the inn.  Steve couldn’t stop himself from calling Dan one more time – no answer at either number.  His sudden impulsive need to talk to his friend worried him – lent a sense of desperation to what he already felt. 

 

Nicole felt his uneasiness.  His inability to talk to Williams was a little unnerving to her.  She remembered too well when she had been involved with the mob how abruptly and quickly people completely vanished.  Tomorrow, she decided she would talk Steve into returning to Hawaii.  He needed to be there sooner than planned – even if it was only a day earlier. 

 

That night Steve napped more than he slept.  He tried to not disturb Nicole too much but every time he closed his eyes he saw Danno.  It was as if he was reliving their years together – Dan’s life was passing before Steve’s eyes.  He wiped the morbid thought from his mind, but could not loosen the stranglehold the uneasy disturbance had on his chest. It was silly, he silently lectured his psyche.  Plus everything would be fine once he talked to his friend. 

 

 

********

 

 

After paying off the cab, McGarrett hefted his luggage and briskly climbed the front steps of the Palace. He was already weary from a combination of not sleeping well the previous evening, rising early and the hectic sudden activities customary to changing travel arrangements. It was now late in the afternoon and he noted no company LTD’s were parked in the customary slots in front.  So, all the detectives were out working. They hadn’t expected him home so early. 

 

A little disappointed he would not be seeing Williams, he was also a bit relieved.  Looked like just another day at the office.  No crisis.  The dreams -- the unsettling images of nightmares -- had meant nothing; he breathed out with a slight sigh of relief.

 

Then why hadn’t Danno answered the phone last night when he had impulsively called?  No answer at the apartment or at the office.  Well, Williams was not scheduled to be on call last night.  He DID have a private life, as Steve so often teased him.  Still no indication that anything was wrong.  The premonition was nothing more than a bad dream.

 

Climbing up the front staircase of the interior of the Palace, he reminded that Williams usually did not take time off when he was away.  In fact, Danno over-compensated and over-did the attention to work.  Danno had hedged about the Napa holiday so much that he insisted no one but he would know Steve’s location for the long, five-day weekend. 

 

‘If I’m going to play the boss I want to do it right,’ he had joked when he drove McGarrett to the airport last week.  ‘No calling you even if there’s an emergency.’

 

‘Is that a promise?’ Steve had joked.

 

Steve had been distracted thinking about Nicole and the verdant fields of vineyards that would be a different kind of scenery for him.  He had hardly thought about what he was leaving behind.  He forced himself to sever the connection with work and Hawaii.  For a small space of time, he was going to be away from all this.

 

The unsettling feeling harbored under his skin for the last two days swept over him again and reasserted itself firmly in his consciousness.  Again.  Why?  What had happened while he was away? 

 

This was ridiculous!  Since when did he have -- feelings -- of impending doom?  He chided himself for the regression into a race-memory of mysterious Irish mists and ancient tales of superstition.  This was not like his sixth sense perceptions during cases, this was merely an over stressed mind left with too little to think about while on holiday. 

 

Still, he increased his speed as he rounded the corner of the upper landing in the Five-0 wing.  He’d find everything as usual when he opened the polished koa door in front of him.  The staff secretaries -- just preparing to leave for home at this hour -- would greet him.  Later, Danno would return and grill him about his weekend.  Steve would tease him about his absence when he was supposed to be minding the shop.   They would probably go out together for a quiet meal to trade stories and catch the boss up on cases while he had been in California.  It would all be so normal.

 

Sweeping into the main office, he was nearly at Jenny Sherman’s desk when quick observations clicked into his deductive faculties and he knew his predictions were completely wrong.  Only Jenny was there, all the other desks were empty.  Her face was strained and sad and when she looked up at him, it was, at first, with a ripple of disappointment.  Whom was she expecting? Then a flood of relief.  He dropped the suitcase at his feet and stopped.

 

“Steve!  Oh, it’s so good to see you!”  She rushed around the desk and flew at him to give him a fierce hug.  “We’ve been so worried.”

 

Confused and concerned, he gave her a cursory hug in return.  “Worried?  I’m fine.  Why?  What’s wrong?”  His voice already strained with anxiety.

 

“Well, no one knew where you were but Danny.  And -- oh, Steve -- no one knows where he is.”  Her eyes brimmed with tears.  “He’s been missing for two days.  And we couldn’t get in touch with you -- “

 

“Danno’s gone?”  Two Days!  He couldn’t believe it.  His chest seemed to fold in at the emotional blow.  “No,” he sighed in pain, stunned at the horrible news, surprised his dread and dreams had come true.

 

Automatically, he glanced into the cubicle by Jenny’s desk.  The lights were out.  The desk was slightly messy, uneven stacks of papers covering most of the top.  Danno was not there.  A chill singed through his system like a wave of fire and ice.  He didn’t understand the subliminal message he had received.  He didn’t know what kind of psychic level he was working on.  What he knew, though, was that two days ago, he had experienced an unusual nightmare and he had heard his friend -- in agony -- calling for him.  Too far away, too disbelieving, he had done nothing.

 

“Tell me everything,” he demanded, pushing away the socket in his heart that was filled with alarm.  What had he done?  Why didn’t he read those subconscious warnings?  “I have to know everything,” he insisted.

 

Jenny guided him into Williams’ cubicle and she turned on the light.  “He was working hard on that Nelson case,” she unsteadily reminded, touching the desk but not disturbing any papers.

 

McGarrett carefully shuffled through the arrest forms, stake-out summaries, scribbled handwritten notes. The Nelson case.  While Chin Ho had handled a string of auto thefts, Ben Kokua covered the investigation of two con men working Waikiki; Williams had taken over the main case on the books, the Syd Nelson corruption investigation.  Suspected jury tampering in a fraud case.

 

Instantly suspicious, McGarrett started skimming through the notes, looking for a direction.  Had Danno gotten too close and Nelson’s heavy friends silenced him?  He asked what the other detectives had been doing about the disappearance. 

 

Jenny, calmer and more certain now that the boss was back, summarized, “You know, the standard procedural steps.”

 

The door at the end of the corridor slammed open and shut.  Ben Kokua’s tall, athletic form rushed through and he stopped instantly when he saw Steve.  His expression, just like Jenny’s was one of relief.

 

“Steve, good that you’re back.”

 

“Tell me what’s going on!” he demanded.  An instant accusation, though he did not mean it like that.  “What happened to Danno?”

 

“He was here late Friday night, Steve. The next day we came in and he never showed.  We didn’t figure it out right away,” he shook his head in deep regret.  “Most of us were in and out of the office all day.”

 

“I was off until today,” Jenny supplied, regretful.

 

“So he might have been gone for two and a half days!” Steve concluded harshly.  He stabbed Kokua with a narrow glare.  “His apartment?”

 

“We checked.  The hospital, the morgue,” he stated quickly, “Even some of his girlfriends.  Nothing.  No one’s seen him since Friday night.”

 

“His car?”

 

“The Mustang’s at his apartment.  The LTD is gone.”

 

“I can’t believe this!  Where is Chin?”

 

“He thought he had a lead out at Waianae.  Duke’s been hitting the streets and pressuring some informants.  I just came back from HPD.  Thought I’d check out our recent cases.  In case some one’s come back for revenge or something.”  He grimaced.  There’s a lot of investigations that Danny’s been in on.  And a lot of enemies, bruddah.”

 

Not what McGarrett wanted to hear.  A necessary step, but one that might be nothing more than leg work.  He felt like they were striking out blindly with no skill, no hope.  What did they investigate when someone just walked away and disappeared?

 

“I’m going to concentrate on Nelson,” he decided and started gathering up files.

 

Ben helped and they relocated the mass of paperwork onto McGarrett’s office.  It was a little stuffy in there and Ben mentioned no one had been in here since Steve left.  Danny did all his work from his office.  Steve opened the lanai doors.  A gust of fresh wind blew some of the papers off and Ben gathered them together.  Steve stared out at the afternoon twilight sky, wondered where his friend could be.

 

 

********

 

 

“Steve?”

 

A whispered scream floating from darkness trailed by unfocused, misty gray.  Suddenly, a flash -- like a flashbulb lighting a dark room. 

 

Danno.  Disheveled, hurting, crying out -- crying -- in pain.   Trapped.  He couldn’t move.

 

“Steve!”

 

 

*******

 

A faint tickle against his cheek woke him.  McGarrett blinked his eyes open, seeing papers ruffled in the breeze brushing his face. He raised his head off his desk before his mind filtered away form the dream and grasped reality.  He had spent the night going through evidence -- searching for clues.  Glancing around, just for a moment, he thought it was Danno, bringing in coffee and opening the door . . . .

 

“Chin!” he breathed in, trying not to show the confusion and disappointment he felt.

 

Kelly was not looking at him.  The Oriental detective was busy shuffling the papers around the coffee mug he’d just placed on the desk.

 

“Anything new?”

 

“Nothing.”

 

“Nothing.”

 

Then it was all real.  The disorienting dream, the images of Danno hurting -- trapped -- in pain -- had confused him.  It was an illusion.  Was there any basis in fact?  Was it just his imagination supplying the visions of dread?  His expectations filling in the scenes of terror?

 

Sipping the coffee, he only half-heard Chin’s report on the night’s lack of progress from HPD.  There were the usual crime incidents around the island and Kelly reported those, but Steve wasn’t listening with full attention.  He sortied the papers that had been reshuffled in the breeze.  One, he noted, had blown onto the floor.  Picking it up, his heart skipped a beat.

 

 

LEHUE

PIKAKE   APARTMENTS

# 4

IN   THE   BACK

 

 

Danno’s distinctive -- all capital -- bold writing.

 

Lehue.  One of Steve’s rare informants was named Lehue.  Keo Lehue. He lived at the old, run down Pikake  building at the edge of Chinatown.  Steve had met him there a few times.  He asked Chin about the message and Kelly knew nothing about it.

 

“We’re going to check this out.  Come on.”

 

Knowing it was a bad neighborhood, and not knowing what they would find, McGarrett ordered Kokua and Lukela to meet them there. 

 

While the morning was sunny and bright, the Trades coming off the ocean didn’t reach as far inland as the stuffy, mean streets in the old downtown area.   When they pulled up, Kokua and Lukela were already there, standing in front of the stucco-crumbling three-story apartment house.

 

Jogging up the outside stairs, McGarrett drew his revolver.  When they reached the back at number four, he stood to the side and tapped on the old wood with his weapon.

 

“McGarrett!  Open up!”

 

No response.  No noise inside.

 

Without patience, too anxious, he kicked down the flimsy door.  Inside the small studio apartment, it was fetid and hot, humid and sickening with the scent of death.  Nearly choking, fear spiking to clog his throat with bile, McGarrett took a deep, filtered breath through his hand.  In the dim light of the thin curtains, he saw a body in the corner behind the door.  Gasping, he stepped back, imagining it to be Williams.  In the next instant, he realized it was not his friend, but the tingle of fear still danced on his nerves. 

 

Lehue,” he rasped hoarsely.

 

Coughing, he turned away and froze.  On the wall, written in smeared red, was the scrawl:

 

 

I O U

 

 

“A message,” Chin darkly concluded.

 

McGarrett’s tight chest hardly allowed any air in or out.  Revenge.  Someone was out for revenge.  They had killed Lehue, set up Danno, and -- and done what to his friend?  Was that blood used to write the message?  Whose blood?

 

There was no room anywhere else here to hide a body and he felt himself shaking.  Slowly re-holstering his weapon, he exhaled through his lips and stepped outside into the fresher air.  The room was too small for all of them and Duke had remained outside.  While Chin and Ben studied the little apartment, Lukela’s gaze was across the street at the lip of an alley.

 

“Steve.”

 

McGarrett grunted, too keyed up to speak.

 

“I think that’s Danny’s car.”

 

McGarrett stared at the black Ford across the street.  It was sitting on its rims -- the tires gone -- and several other items, too, like mirrors and the front grill.  Stripped.  This WAS a bad neighborhood.  A little dazed, heart racing with anticipation, he jogged, then ran down the old steps and over to the car.

 

Yeah, it looked like Danno’s black LTD.  No license plates left to confirm that. 

 

“Get a lab crew down here right away,” he ordered, studying the car through the open window. 

 

No signs of violence, he noted.  No blood.  No damage.  That was something anyway.  The trunk was open and he checked.  No body. 

 

Rubbing hands over his face, he paced away, staring at the ruined vehicle, hoping it was not symbolic of his missing detective.

 

“Danno.” he whispered in quiet despair.  “What happened?  Where are you?  I need something more than the dreams, my friend.”  He stared at the streets, the old buildings, wondering if they would find William’s body somewhere here in the warren of hopelessness.  “I’m trying to find you, Danno.  Please be alive.  I’m not giving up.  Promise.”

 

 

********

 

 

His brain felt like mush.  He’d lost count of the number of times the hands had approached him with the needle.  He was numb.  No longer did he feel the needle pricks.  His mind was constantly buzzing.  He felt warm and a little nauseous but other than that nothing bad.  The ‘rush’ was fairly pleasurable.  The hands approached him again.  He thought he heard a voice.  The voice was asking him if he wanted more.  The boring, rational part of him tried to scream ‘no’.  He fought it down and sighed ‘hhhmmmmm’ as the needle sank into his arm. 

 

 

********

 

Steve shoved his office door open and slammed it shut behind him as soon as he cleared the doorway.  He needed to block out, to forget all that he had just seen.  The scene at Pikake Apartments had unnerved him in a way that very few things ever had except for his initial ‘dream’ several nights ago in Napa.  He wasn’t even aware of Jenny speaking on the phone until he heard her slam it down in frustration.  He glanced in her direction, raising an eyebrow.

 

“Reporters!  That’s got to be the third one.  Every one of them wanting to know what is going on by that apartment building you went to.”

 

“You ARE giving them the usual story, yes?”

 

“Of course, but this last one was more specific than the others.  Acted like he already knew certain details.  Wasn’t happy at all with the ‘no comment’.  Said he knew that we were trying to hide something.”

 

Jenny finally raised her eyes to examine her boss.  McGarrett looked terrible – worse than he had before they left the office.  She wondered what he had seen out there.  She knew that if they had found Danny Steve would have told her.  Since he had not, she wasn’t sure she really wanted to know what they HAD found. 

 

“Just stick with the usual story, Jenny.  Any other calls?”

 

Before she could reply, Steve wandered off towards the cubicles, drifting into Williams’.  He leaned against the doorframe staring but not really seeing anything.  He couldn’t explain it but felt that there was something immeasurably comforting about being in Danno’s office.  He took a few slow breaths.  Although he had never felt it before -- perhaps had never paused long enough to try and ‘sense’ it -- there was a kind of aura – presence – that he detected here lately.  He wondered at the sudden birth of characteristics that reminded him of ancestral stories his mother used to tell.  He had never put much faith in the tales until recently.  Here, in Dan’s office, it was as if he felt his friend’s presence in the most comforting way possible.  Being in here seemed to soothe the rage and hurt that had boiled in him since realizing that his foreboding nightmare had become reality. 

 

Jenny stared at McGarrett, a small stack of messages in her hand.  She didn’t reply to his question.  He would never have heard her if she did.  She knew that the boss’ mind was no longer in the office.  It was with Danny wherever he was.  She closed her eyes against the emotion that made her weepy at night once she was home, striving not to let the sorrow hit her here and now.  She could not cry here.  She needed to be strong for these men, for the boss who was so close to going over the edge himself this time.  She wondered at the difference.  Dan had been hurt many times before, had even been held hostage and kidnapped but Steve had never reacted the way he was now.  The only legitimate thought was that any other time something occurred McGarrett had been there immediately afterward to help or to locate Williams.  Not this time! 

 

McGarrett abruptly turned from the office and snatched the messages out of Jenny’s hand.  He moved into his own office, slamming the door behind him.  He dumped the memo papers onto his desk, walked immediately over to the lanai and flung open the doors.  He leaned against the railing and tried to settle his ragged breathing as he thought back to the ominous message that had been written on the apartment wall. 

 

When he had fled the scene, the lab team had arrived.  A couple of them were already examining the vehicle.   

Che Fong himself had gone up to the apartment to study the wall.  He had taken a few pictures and scraped off a sample from the smeared message on the wall, and had promised a report before the end of the day.  He had offered to make Steve copies of the pictures and have them delivered to the Palace.  Revulsion had filled McGarrett and he was only able to turn and quickly leave the building.  He knew he would not need pictures to remember the message.  It was indelibly stamped in his mind, on his heart, even though he still did not understand what it meant.   He wasn’t positive that message was tied to Dan’s disappearance.  He looked up at the sky as if all of his answers were written there. 

 

“Where are you?  I know you need me, but I don’t know how to get to you, aikane.”

 

Finally, he walked back into his office and absently sorted through his messages.   The normal ones, the ones he expected to see, were all there.  But one – he paused over it. And read the two words on the paper. 

 

‘Nicole’  Then further down on the paper a question.  ‘Safe?’

 

He should call her; let her know what was happening.

 

The phone rang before he could act on his thought.  Jenny told him that Che was on the phone waiting for him.

 

“Yes, Che – what have you got?”

 

“I hurried the test because I knew you’d want to know right away, Steve.  The message on the wall was written in blood, Steve.”

 

He froze momentarily.  His voice sounded stiff in his own ears.  “Can you identify whose blood?”

 

There was a long pause.  “Yes, Steve, the blood was the same type as Danny’s.”

 

McGarrett’s mind blanked.  He was incapable of thought or reaction.  He did not even know how he managed to end the conversation and hang up the phone.  He was hardly aware of anything else he did.

 

The rest of the day he did not remember any details.  At some point, late at night, he could not even begin to explain how he managed to leave the office and arrive at his apartment.  Somehow, he found himself sitting on his lanai.  Was that his phone ringing?  He finally went inside and answered it. 

 

“Steve, its Nicole.”

 

“Hi, Nicole, are you back home?”

 

“Yes, is everything OK over there?”

 

Reluctantly Steve told her about how true his dream had been and some of what had happened since his arrival home.  Talking about it, verbalizing the events made them real again, made them hurt even more than they already did if that was possible.  He didn’t know how long they talked, couldn’t even tell what he did the rest of the evening.  He knew he wasn’t hungry.  He hardly ever ate at home, much less alone.  Most of his meals were shared with Danno.  Steve couldn’t help but wonder if they would ever again do something as ordinary as that again.  Morose brooding was so unlike him.  He never permitted it.  But it was like he had no power over it of late.  Irrationally, he blamed the haunting nightmares.

 

Later that night he dreamed again: 

 

Dan’s blood was everywhere he looked.  But Dan was no where to be found even though Steve could hear him calling for him.

 

He walked into a hospital room and looked around.  This was the room where Danno had been held hostage after he was shot several years ago.  There was a lump of something over near the window.  He walked over and knelt beside it.  He turned it over and froze as he stared at Danno’s dead body. 

 

Suddenly he was climbing up Diamond Head.  Danno had missed his shot at the sniper.  McGarrett could hear the pain in his voice, knew he had been shot.  He had to get to him quickly.  They were almost there when he saw the rifle come up again.  Danno was going to try another shot! The sniper had spotted Williams.  He wanted to yell for him to get down.  But he could do nothing but watch helplessly as the sniper fired again, as his friend’s body jerked then fell, as the other officers fired consecutively taking out the shooter.  He ran to his friend, falling to his knees next to the unmoving body – the lifeless body.

 

A blinding flash of light and then --

 

He was pacing in the corridor of the hospital as he waited for word.  So much blood had been shed already.  All to save the lives of his three neighbors.  The danger that came with this safe house assignment had been the very reason why his second in command had gone.  There was no one that McGarrett trusted more.  A stretcher was wheeled out of the trauma room and he stopped it, eyeing the young oriental woman a few feet away.  She would be unable to ID the body.  It was up to him.  He raised the sheet and pulled it slowly off the face.  He stared down at the curly hair, the pale face and closed eyes – eyes that had always been so expressive and easy to read, eyes he would never see again.  He lifted the sheet higher to look at the damage the bullets had caused, to look at what he had done to his friend when he had given the gunman the address to the safe house.  Danno’s death was his fault, his friend’s blood would be forever on his hands.